jo+yxybb

You live with a purpose, so everything you do should have a purpose...

So why doesn't my current research seem to have a definite purpose?

You see, X already exists, and now I'm adding Y to it.... just like when you have a relationship, X+Y=3 or more, right? you hope to get a good relationship -- something positive out of adding the two.. But I just found out from  my supervisor that I'm just making X+Y because nobody has made it before.... could be good, could be bad, could be nothing at all ...

Sometimes all of us get into this situation, you ask yourself, "so I might not get anything out of 40hrs of work a week!???"

I guess the answer is wrong (hahah I already thought it through in the time I typed up this stuff)... damn wrong!!

There's always a good side to everything. if X+Y seems unfruitful, well then you found out that you will never make X+Y again, so you can move on to something else, easy as that! On a deeper level, this made me realized that I am still young and naive. I don't mean to say this so people think I'm naive and easy to trick. But I say this because everybody needs some alone time to self-reflect. Especially if you are like me, I was given this duty to handle the project alone, for the first time ever! So,... your confidence just explodes and you forget to be cautious with yourself.. YES YOU ARE USUALLY THE ONE THAT TRICKS YOURSELF  (bad boy... tsk tsktsk) So you skip a step and just charge forward without thinking, you then miss a step (like me) and just miss the whole point.....

I guess we live with the purpose of learning.. not learning from school per se.. but learning more and more about ourselves, to be careful, conscious, yet confident... just take a step back, a deep breath, and rest a while.. you can find out lots about yourself (and maybe other things =)

On a happier note, I'm ready to continue my project wherever it takes me... and you?